If you or a loved one has been sexually assaulted, I am so sorry for the senseless suffering you are enduring. Please know it’s not your fault. You are a crime victim. Rape and sexual assault are about power. Criminals commit crimes because they feel powerless. To empower themselves, they choose to take away someone else's power.
It’s devastating. Because you’re struggling to survive every moment of every day, you don’t even realize they’ve taken away your power on so many different levels. After you start receiving counseling and healing, you will come to a point where you should start thinking about what you need to do to take back your power. For me, it was going public and telling everyone I know and meet. Then, volunteering for sexual violence prevention non-profits. Eventually, it became writing a screenplay which turned into a book and grew into starting my own book publishing company for trauma survivors which I’m launching soon.
With the guidance of your therapist, it might helpful for you to start thinking about what you need to do to take back your power. It’s different for everyone. I recommend consulting a qualified healthcare professional to help you sort out your feelings and goals. You can do this! I know you can. If you delve down into the depths of your soul, you’ll realize that you know you can, too.